9 years ago  I met the most amazing man. I was newly single and not looking for anything more then a good time. My aunt insisted I meet a friend of hers. Reluctantly I blew of a friend and met this guy she couln't wait for me to meet.
These two guys walk in the front door as I'm walking out of the bedroom. Instantly this tall blonde headed green eyed guy catches my eye and I'm thinking "please to God let him be the one". My aunt introduced us and it was him.
We played cards had a few drinks and a lot of laughs. He was attempting to teach me to play cards and he and his friend kept messing up and dealing the wrong cards. He spilled his beer on me. in all aspects it should have been the worse night ever.
After he left I knew I could not go home to my mom's even though I was 20 I didn't want her to smell the beer and cigerettes on me. I spent the night atmy aunts and we talked about him all night. I think I knew then that he was the one I kept lying to myself saying it wasn't going to turn into anything because I was scared I had just come out of a very bad very long relationship.
We went on a few dates and I had my aunt or mom double with us every time because I was afraid to be alone with him because I knew I could not trust myself around him. Our first date was to the fair my mom and step-dad and my aunt and his friend went with us, we had dinner at the Olive Garden first. Our second date was fireworks with my friend Brandy and her family. After that we went to the bar and he tried to teach me to play pool. Our first time going out alone was after we watched movies at my aunts with her and his friend. We all fell asleep watching this super boring movie well he and I woke up at about 1 am and decided we were hungry so we went to Denny's. July 13th he came over to visit but my aunt had a lot of people over so we left and went to a motel, he asked me to be his girlfriend it was the sweetest most romantic thing ever it was so cute how he said it. I just smiled and kissed him.
Next year on our 10 year anniversary we will be getting married. All I have ever wanted he has made come true. He gave me my two beautiful children and a love I have never known.

babies grow up...

Sometimes it's hard being a parent. I'm not saying it still isn't the best thing I've ever done but it is hard. When you think about having children of your own what you picture is picnics in the park, teaching them to ride a bike, Christmas morning and the look on their face when they open the one thing they wanted all year. What you aren't imagining is the tantrums, the fights and it's mines, you don't think about when they grow up and become teenagers and the whole new list of tantrums and fits. The I wants and it's not fair. Kids are not easy anyone who tells you they are is a big fat liar. I love my children with all my heart and could not imagine my life with out them. With that said They drive me insane. It's a good crazy that I would not trad for anything in this world. I think every day if I hear "mommy" one more time my head may explode. If I hear "give it back" again I might just run away and never come back.
Then I hear "here sister I will do it for you" "lets play hide and seek, I'll show you how" and "thank you brother" or I see my son helping his little sister put on her shoes, or my daughter's eyes light up when her big brother shares his favorite toy with her. My heart melts and I think God all over again that I was given the chance to be their mother.
So when you are dreaming about your future with that special someone don't forget children grow up they aren't always babies but all that time from the day they were born till the moment you die it's all worth it. Every fight every "I hate you" or "your so mean" it's one more moment one more day you have with them.